TALKING THROUGH TRAUMA AND PTSD

I hear you @PeppyPatti 💞😢

Family dynamics in a dysfunctional family is a difficult beast to try to fathom. I feel your pain and frustration. I think you are doing the right thing, for now at least, by staying out of it as much as you can. Becoming involved in this toxic situation can only do you more harm my friend. 

I keep in reading your wisdom @Emelia8 

it breaks my heart that I can’t tell my brother that our father really loved him but it’s too dangerous to tell him now and you know - 

I had to research and care for myself all alone whilst I was doing it. I see him being entitled and telling me how much mum hates me ( !!!) 

and I. Three months when I get an apartment from my step mother I can tell him. He can claim his inheritance too but no one could find out because of the evilness of mum 

It saddens me to hear what you are going through @PeppyPatti . How I wish life was kinder to the good people of this world. Often it seems quite the opposite.

I hope one day you are in a position to speak freely to your brother. But in the meantime it's important to protect yourself first and foremost. Nobody else will 💞

My god @Emelia8 

you are really understanding me …..

it was like last week I felt after all these years in therapy I cracked the code - 

@Emelia8 dating dillema @Appleblossom Welcome AuntGlow! 

I realised iv spent my life trying to understand if my mum ever loved me and why did my dad not want to see me and her constant talking about my dad kept him in our minds myself and my 3 brothers minds. 
and I cracked it last week and at the same time my brother came over to visit all white and shaking that he just realised what happened to me about mum. ( nothing sexual ) 

I felt I could yell and sing because I felt this is my life’s work but iv got to forget about it now and move on. 
ide LOVE to tell my 2 youngest brothers brothers but like I said we have all moved on. I told my oldest brother and he like I wrote grey and shaking every time he saw me last week. 

However @Emelia8 

iv been focused on me not you. 
how is Hannah ? 
peanut has my husband and I wrapped around our little fingers 

I’ll check earlier posts in this thread tonight …….. 💕🍀🐕🌷🎂

We should be focusing on you @PeppyPatti 😀 after all this is your thread 💕

But in answer to your thoughtful enquiry, I'm doing okay thanks. I saw my psych last Friday, which was helpful. And my little Hannah .. well, she is just a delight. Dear little girl 🐕 she really does help keep me sane. 

And yes I can well imagine your beautiful little Peanut having you and your husband wrapped around those paws 🐾.  They really are special ❤️

Hello everyone 

I’m writing about why or how I thought my mothers used semniotics to get in between my brothers and my relationship, my therapist has directed me to this wonderful person I used to read back in the day - Julia Kristeva - 

si in a sec I’ll have the answers or at least a very rough raw draft - beginner understanding of this……