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I’ve barely had a social life since kindergarten

I’ve barely had a social life since kindergarten

When I was in kindergarten (about 6-ish) I had this person who was my close friend.

Then one day he dropped our friendship for no apparent reason, and idk if I did something or what…

But soon after, my family started travelling for work and I was homeschooled… and I never got a real social life or a chance to heal from the hurt of having my closest friend drop our friendship for no reason

fast forward to now and I have one friend, but they’re super busy and we hardly talk, which sucks.

but, because that hurt has turned into trauma, it has pretty much given me the inability to make friends.

I can’t talk to anyone I’m not related to in public without freaking out (but not panic attack level freaking out).
And I can talk to people I’m not interested in being friends with perfectly fine (like store workers and suck. No offence to you guys, I’m sure you guys are great).

But when it comes to making a new friend, I just freak out and start thinking about every single possible worst case scenario, even if they’re near impossible to happen.

I’m going to therapy about it but it isn’t helping much.

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Re: I’ve barely had a social life since kindergarten

Hey @overwhelmed_579, thank you for sharing your experiences with the community!

 

Sounds like you have been through a lot starting at a young age in kindergarten and then being homeschooled. It's really brave of you to be so vulnerable and open about your experiences here on the Forums. I have had a lot of challenges with making and keeping friends over the years too and can relate to finding it difficult when you meet new people.

 

The Forums are a great space for connecting with people and you are able to engage at a pace that suits you. There are definitely different Members on here that are friends and that is something that they have a choice about so it is up to every individual what they want out of the Forums. As I said you can engage at a pace that suits you and you don't have to make any decisions right away either. See how it goes for you over time!!

 

Here are some threads that you might find beneficial:

 

https://saneforums.org/t5/Social-space/How-To/td-p/1562864

 

https://saneforums.org/t5/Welcome-and-getting-started/How-To-Recovery-Focused-Posting/td-p/1673390

 

Feel free to have a good look around the Forums and see what threads and spaces spark your interest!!

 

Thanks again for contributing to the community!!

 

Take care

 

RiverSeal

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Re: I’ve barely had a social life since kindergarten

Hi @overwhelmed_579 

My name is PeppyPatti. I’m writing to you freaking out—I’ve done all the wrong things with my support worker, and I completely related with your message because it’s so vulnerable, just like me.

 

Friends,

therapy,

starting again...

 

it feels like you are carrying a heavy load just like me, where we always seem to blame ourselves. Does this sound like you?

 

I’m a mess. My life has had no boundaries, so I actually thought, “Maybe I can get my NDIS support workers to teach me how to have a decent friendship.” Maybe that would help me.

But then I realized something. I bought my support worker a coffee in a cafe, and her husband, who is a chef, spontaneously made me and my husband two meals just to say thank you. Wow.

 

However, it’s so hard to accept that kindness.

 

I truly relate to what you said about therapy. I may be wrong, and I’m so sorry if I’m seeing your situation incorrectly, but... I am also in therapy. And somehow, through it all, I’ve moved. I finally realised it’s not my fault. 

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Re: I’ve barely had a social life since kindergarten

Hey there - I have an understanding. I have suffered loneliness a long long time -

 

I was lovingly directed here for this reason -

 

I am more aware now of finding communities that you feel comfortable in. -

 

I attend church among other activities and it is nice to be among others - also, I have had jobs working as a solo person - so least that you may be able to find connection with people and find the right communities to have and attend as you need. 

 

I find Lifeline a perfect treatment - so least thier support is and has always been fantastic. - Keep reaching out, seeking help -

 

I hope you find what you seek 🙂

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